has anyone seen my muse?


I’m not sure what my problem is right now. I mean, I have ADD so I’m used to having problems focusing, but they’ve never lasted this long. I’ve spent about three hours today rewriting the same paragraph, and I’m getting nowhere quickly. And I’m starting to become disappointed in myself because projects I’d thought would be completed by now seem to be dragging on endlessly, and I feel as if everything is getting away from me. The crazy thing is that it’s not that the characters aren’t talking to me; it’s that I’m too stressed out to pay attention to what they’re saying.  Even worse, I’m not even sure why I feel this way.

Anyway, thanks for your patience. I’m working on stuff—really.

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  1. on 21 Sep 2010 at 8:46 pmFreelove Zilpha

    I sympathize. Writers who have blocks never stop writing; we produce a lot of writing, in fact, but it doesn’t speak to us, or it doesn’t fall into place. SOOOOO frustrating. It sounds like you’re doing the right thing, though, to stay brave and keep at it. I’m confident things will start clicking (and it’s a sign of a good writer who can keep going through the rough terrain). Good luck. I look forward to reading whatever you choose to share!


  2. on 22 Sep 2010 at 8:14 amMary

    I’ve been reading your stuff for almost a year. Sometimes I wonder how you can even keep up with what you’ve already written. Considering this is a hobby, not a full-time job, I think you are doing an exceptional job! I am not a writer in any way, shape, or form so I can’t really understand the whole process, but it seems that bumps in the road are inevitable. I never understand readers who get into a snit about writers not updating. Like them throwing a virtual temper tantrum is going to inspire you and make you write faster. Good luck finding your writing mojo–I’ll be here when you are ready to write, regardless of the length of delay!


  3. on 22 Sep 2010 at 8:39 amfvprosey

    You take all the time you need, I will still be here for you!


  4. on 22 Sep 2010 at 8:55 amLinsey

    Um, yeah. Completely understand. Been dealing with that since November…


  5. on 22 Sep 2010 at 11:34 pmKatie

    Take your time, sweetie! We’ve ALL been there at one time or another. And if I’m not mistaken, aren’t you chasing 2 preschoolers while you’re writing all these wonderful things? A friend used to refer to these years as the “drowning years” because no matter how hard you worked to stay on top of things, you always feel like you’re drowning!
    Please take the pressure off yourself. You have a deeply devoted fan base who will occupy themselves by rereading all your lovely stories while waiting ever so patiently for more. Seriously, aa5 and CP NEVER get old. I can amuse myself for days at a time just randomly perusing favorite parts…
    BTW, I did borrow your muse…to help me work on my resume. I’ll send her back as soon as it sounds like it was written by a Princeton alum! :)


    Colleen reply:

    Thanks, bb. And though I’m flattered, I didn’t go to Princeton. I went to a tiny school in the middle of nowhere that was willing to overlook obvious weakness in my application because of my “considerable talent as a performer” LMAO. In other words, they didn’t care that I only had ninth grade math, I could cry on cue and hit a mean high e. It’s all good, though. They taught me how to think and how to write.


  6. on 30 Sep 2010 at 11:29 amsurrogatejewishmama

    Try this for some inspiration…I go back to this when I need to lay off the self-doubt :( http://www.ted.com/talks/lang/eng/elizabeth_gilbert_on_genius.html

    Your writing is lovely and captivating and truly stands out. Continue to be risk-taking and forgive yourself when this path leads to the seeming dead-end. You’ll surely find another way through…where your muse is patiently waiting for you :)


  7. on 04 Oct 2010 at 7:01 pmMeilleurCafe

    I have been going through the same thing, especially with writing. I feel very diffused, and even though I have a very clear idea of what to write in this last chapter, the words are just not cooperating.

    With almost anything else, I would feel certain that at some point it’s going to end, but with this, I feel like I never know. It’s not like having a cold, where at the end of the week you’re generally better. You never know when the gifts of clarity and inspiration will come to you, and you never know when they’re going to leave.


  8. on 08 Oct 2010 at 5:20 pmanitaf

    All my love and strengh to you. You´re probably just tired. take a break! Writting should be fun!