As I took the podium, I reminded myself that I could hold it together for the eulogy—that I could do this to honor the man who’d done everything for me. I took a deep breath and stared out into the sea of faces before me. Some were tear-stained and others stoic, but all were waiting for me to speak. When I found Bella in the last row, I was finally able to begin.

“John Carlisle Cullen IV was many things to many people—a son, a brother, a surgeon, a mentor. Setting and needs dictated the kind of relationships he would form with those in his life, and the relationship he forged with me was no exception. As my father, he was loving, supportive, patient and wise. As my best friend, he was—well—none of those things.

“I’ve spent the past ten hours trying to find the right words to convey to you who my dad was, and all I could come up with is that Carlisle Cullen was that kind of guy. He was the kind of guy you wanted to be with—equal parts jovial and conscientious, he always enjoyed himself, but he never did so at the expense of others. He knew how to live as well as how to love, and somehow despite our non-traditional relationship, taught me to do the same.”

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  1. on 06 Apr 2010 at 12:36 amradiofreeamy



  2. on 06 Apr 2010 at 12:55 amAnne



  3. on 06 Apr 2010 at 1:05 am@Rene2608

    touching words, and you as per usual, are touching my soul with them


  4. on 06 Apr 2010 at 1:16 amnikicolecole

    How can you make me cry with only a teaser? I'm definitely going to need my wine for this one.


  5. on 06 Apr 2010 at 2:00 am@ouiserb

    **sniff sniff**

    I love how how honest and unguarded Edward is in this moment. It's painful but beautiful.


  6. on 06 Apr 2010 at 12:03 amTippyL

    Do you know someone who Carlisle is based on? Or just someone you made up? Despite Counterpoint being mostly about E & B, Carlisle’s character is so well developed and specific. Can’t wait for the chapter.


  7. on 06 Apr 2010 at 12:17 ampatty

    this is not a good way to start my lunch break. you’re bringing me to tears.
    amazing. can’t wait for the rest of the chapter!


  8. on 06 Apr 2010 at 4:57 ampatty

    you're making me cry so hard.
    this is gonna be a hard chapter to get through :(

    thanks for sharing


  9. on 06 Apr 2010 at 10:21 amlovestoread24

    Thanks for the teaser………. looking forward to reading it. I'll be prepared and have tissues.


  10. on 06 Apr 2010 at 6:44 pmlily

    he really knows how to speak and he truly always knows what to say!


  11. on 08 Apr 2010 at 4:08 amGreenie


    I apologize for sending you the rude PM last week. Since posting, I’ve thought a lot about it and sincerely regret it and am truly sorry. It was mean and achieved nothing. You’re right, I should have given you the benefit of the doubt. In the last few days I’ve been reading your posts since the forum began and realize how wrong what I said was. Again, I am very sorry.

    I enjoy your stories and am appreciative of you sharing your talent.



    sleepyvalentina reply:

    And yet, people lined up to agree with you. I'm not sure if that was white knighting or part of a larger issue within the fandom in which personally attacking an author is acceptable if the story doesn't go the way you'd like. It's one of many abundant double standards, along with the fact that readers can take liberties in the way they address authors ("not trying to offend, but…") and if the author responds in kind ("not trying to offend"), she is intentionally being rude. Contrary to the assertions of several readers, I don't typically mitigate. I do, however, tend to respond to questions using the same tone in which they were asked.

    Starla's response was posted for roughly four hours before you sent your PM blasting me—four hours on a holiday weekend. I wasn't ignoring anyone; I simply wasn't online. Am I not entitled to have a life outside of my hobby?

    If you take a close look at this site, you'll notice there are no ads. Webhosting, software, domain names—these all cost money. I'm not going to deny that I've gained quite a bit from this community, but I also like to think that I've given a lot back.

    For the record, had your PM criticized my writing, my reaction would have been quite different. You criticized me as a person, something I simply won't stand for from anyone who doesn't actually know me.

    I appreciate your apology, and whereas I may have over-reacted when I temporarily took down the other site, I don't think I was wrong to react. When you visit my private website, it's almost like you're a guest in my home. I felt like I'd hauled out the good china and polished the silver, only to be told there was a wrinkle a in one of the napkins. But it's okay, because I'm just words on a screen. No one knows me, so it's easy to forget I have feelings and responsibilities outside of my writing.